The wind breaths through my hair, whipping it around my neck, my heart beats furiously against my chest, my body shakes uncontrollably, I know you're there, waiting for me to make my move, to cry out, to shed a tear, but I stand pressed against the wall, silent, I want to shout out, to break down and beg but I don't, I cant. My eyes strain against the inky blackness, darting from left to right, searching for a clue as to your position, but the night folds in around me, I cant see anything, which means you cant see me. My nails dig into my palms, I don't feel the pain, as the skin is broken, my whole body is numb; clenching my teeth I stop the pleas that threaten to pore out. I don't even know why this is happening, my once dearest friend, now my worst nightmare, you turned against me, what did I do wrong? Can't we correct it? These things I want to ask you, but its too late, was it my fault? Will I ever know? I can hear you now, you're close, you can hear me too, I know, you're moving closer, but I cant move, cant cry out, why are you doing this? You're beside me now, I can see your faint outline, and you can see me. What are you thinking? Will you speak? Or just do it? Will it be quick? You reach out and touch my face, softly, following the tears that have begun to fall, I know what you're going to do, I can feel the weapon pressed against me, I don't know why and I never shall, but I still love you, I shouldn't but I do, I don't even feel the pain, just your soft voice "sorry" before I slip into my endless sleep.